Wednesday, May 07, 2008
A Thought for Mother’s Day
So, as I sat here writing an email to my sister-in-law about how little ones absorb time fast (she is a new mom and hasn't sent out the 3 month or 6 month photos of her daughter...got a little behind..we've all been there!) I thought of each of you, the mothers I know. I thought how we must all feel about how fast time has gone by, and how bittersweet motherhood is. I shared a story with her, and I hope it helps as she raises her first child. I felt so alone in raising my son as he was my first and I had no clue how to do it. I had...correction, HAVE so many regrets. Each night as I kiss my children, I worry that how I parented today, might not have been the best way. I wonder if I will have the answers they need tomorrow.
Being a mom often means faking it. Dealing with things day to day that you honestly have no idea how to handle, all the while, hiding your fear that you are doing it wrong.
Regrets? After talking to my step-mom about my regrets, some that I feel so deeply that I still cry about, she assured me that all moms have them. Maybe not the same regrets, but regrets none the less. So, here is what I shared with my sister-in-law.
"I imagine they (regrets) are sort of like battle scars we wear. Maybe not so out there for everyone to see, but still, proudly because regrets mean you are trying your very best. That is all we can do."
To all of the mom's out there, have a happy Mother's Day. I know, you are all doing your best!
Saturday, March 08, 2008
One more thing about military spouses...
If you think that we only care about ourselves, and our own soldiers you are far from correct. Our hearts break each time a friend's soldier deploys. Our hearts break as we watch the evening news, and see the faces of strangers that share our lifestyle saying goodbye...AGAIN. Our hearts feel the grief that you see in a widow's face as she is handed that flag.
It is hard to decribe what it is, but it FEELS like each one of us, whether we know each other or not, is in fact a part of each other. A true kinship. We don't always like each other, but we feel for each other.
I want to dedicate this to friends of mine that are about to say goodbye again. I want you to know, that you have a place in my heart, and I am thinking of you and your families. I want you to know, you are not alone. I hope that through this, you find solice in knowing for every beat of your own heart for your soldier, there are lots more hearts beating and thinking of you.
Stay strong!
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Here comes 2007... A YEAR LATER...
HOW THINGS CHANGE!!!
May 2008 be good to us all.
2007 just about kicked my butt, but I survived! Thank God for miracles big and small.
So as I sit here tonight, touching up my MySpace, time in 2006 is tick, tick, ticking away. Saddam was killed today... just a note for the date and time...
Most people look back on the year and see what they would change. I myself can only focus forward. In the past year, only 3 of those were "normal" months. We were a true family unit for 3 out of 12 months! Between hurricanes, earthquakes, and war, 3 months were ours. I feel like I have just walked in a daze through 2006, and 2007 doesn't look much more clear. So with that, my hope and wish for a new year would be for family unity, time together, and peaceful moments.
Happy New Year...
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