As I write this, Dec. 24, 2009 is ticking away. Tomorrow my children will wake and come running to see what Santa brought them. I will be beaming and full of love, camera in hand as usual. Everything will "seem" normal, but three hearts here and a heart 4000 miles away will know the difference.
It has been very hard to push through the Christmas season knowing that our soldier would miss it. My kids have been so great about keeping their chins up and just enjoying the moments with mom. Time keeps going regardless, and the Army steals so much already. I can't, WON'T, give them my time with my children too.
Survival of this season has meant savoring the small things, and making big deals out of small moments. We have shared more than our fair share of hot cocoa, tried hot apple cider, and played board games. Anything and everything we could do to stay busy and just enjoy each other. I love this season, and I love that the Army has taught us to soak moments like this up.
My kids have really been a source of joy and love this season. They are both so strong and amazing. I could never fully express how very proud I am of them and their steadfast courage in their Dad's absence.
I can however tell you that we have a special moment planned. They have trudged through this season thinking that Dad wouldn't be home until January. In the 16 years he has been in the Army, and 13 we have been married, this is the first Christmas missed. We have been very blessed.
Plenty of tears were shed when they learned he wouldn't be able to make it for Christmas this year. My 11 year old wanted to visit Santa to ask that Dad have a good Christmas. :) My tough kiddos even agreed to wait and open the gifts from Mom and Dad when Dad gets home...in January.
Our children will be so surprised when Daddy greets them at the airport soon. I have them convinced that they are going to the airport for a field trip. Just something to keep us "busy" during the Christmas break and take our minds off Daddy being gone. :) I cannot wait to see their smiles when they see their soldier.
I cannot wait to hold my soldier in my arms.
That is how I have survived this Christmas season. All of my thoughts and energy have been centered on pulling off this ruse and filling my kids with a joy that they will remember for the rest of their lives. There is no better gift. Even Santa can't beat this!
Merry Christmas everyone!
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